The past semester and into this summer, I have thought about my faith and how much I’ve grown. One thing that has stuck out to me is that I do not reflect on God’s goodness enough. I have a lot of to-do’s of personal growing that I would like to fix, but what I noticed is that I rarely slow down to look around at God’s beautiful creation that surrounds me. I have not thanked Him nearly enough for all He has given me.
I always seem to have something to complain about, which frustrates me because the life that God has given me compared to what I deserve is astonishing. I deserve death, but God gives me life, and an incredible one at that. God has blessed me with so much that as I think of what I do not have, they seem minute and unimportant. I have an incredible family. My parents are both strong believers and I have two older sisters who are also strong believers that I look up to so much. When I live at home, I live in Oceanside – a place called Oceanside can not be a bad place to live! I go to school at Biola University where I have learned so much about myself and most importantly, about who God is. I have met the most amazing friends this year, I cannot even express how much I love them. I am so blessed!
Although I still ask for things when I pray and ask God to shape me into a woman of God and change my characteristics that do not honor Him, I have been focusing on simply standing in awe of Christ. As long as I have God, I have enough. I don’t know if any of you have ever felt this way, but sometimes I become so used to the beautiful scenery God has placed all around me that I forget to marvel at how majestic His works are. I recently went on a trip to San Francisco with a few dear friends from school. We took the Pacific Coast Highway and for about 3 hours we were driving through the mountains. When I looked to my right, I saw the beautiful greenery of the mountain and as I looked to my left I looked over the cliff and saw the gorgeous crystal blue sea. I know that this is super cliche, but the ocean is what never ceases to amaze me. As I look out, I cannot see where the water ends and I am reminded that God is so much bigger than the sea. This is such a comfort to me.
I have also noticed that over time, worship music has slowly changed from focusing on God to focusing on us. Please don’t think that I am trying to bash these artists because I feel that they truly were worshipping the Lord when they wrote these songs. I will not give any specific examples for this reason. Lately I have been listening to mostly hymns because I am reminded that it is I who is to serve the Lord, He is not obligated to serve me. If you have not listened to many hymns, I suggest checking them some out because speak so much of how wonderful Christ is. When listening to hymns I realize that God is so much bigger than me and he is worthy to be praised. These songs make my heart race and fills me with joy because I understand how wonderful our God is!
As I have been changing the focus of my prayers from my issues to praising God, I have found that those issues I am having are diminishing because I now see the bigger picture. I am a servant to the Lord and I am to spread His Word and be a light for Him. As I thank God for all He has given me, I see my wants and needs become less and less because I am content in Christ.
If you are like me and constantly ask for things from God, I suggest focusing on God’s majesty and faithfulness. I pray that you will have a similar experience and that you will find peace in the love of Christ. This does not mean that you should never make a request to Him again, just have a healthy balance! 🙂
“I will give thanks to the Lord according to His righteousness
And will sing praise to the name of the Lord Most High. ” – Psalm 7:17